Tuesday, June 1, 2010

It's been a while

It's been a while since my last post....

It's not that I've been to busy or didn't have any news, I just was wondering if any of my news was really "blog worthy"? Well I guess I'll try again. Not promising a whole lot -- but I'll try.

Just wanted to share a picture of my nephew, Jimmy, at our Thanksgiving just last year. We did not know it would be our last with him, to see him play with his twins, to see him love and hug his Grandparents, to have him tease his Auntie and to call his sister "Bernice!", to give his Dad a bear hug and see that silly smile he would make at you if he caught you looking at him.

I have missed him so much these last few days. And grieved for him so hard. Just this morning I thought of him and the tears just came and came some more. This has just been so much harder that I ever thought.

He was born when I was 12 so he's more like my baby brother than my nephew. I spent summers babysitting him and Mandy, shooting off fireworks, eating (instead of picking for the table) strawberries and tomatoes straight from the garden -- bugs - dirt and all, swimming in the creek, watching all his "ramping" tricks he would do with his bike, seeing him smell a cookie and then hand it back to you if it wasn't a chocolate chip one, telling me I had "cactus legs" when I needed to shave them, washing and washing his hands when he got chicken poop on them until they smelled right. All those memories just flood over me and I just miss him so much!!

Don't know if this is "therapy" or not but to me -- at this moment -- it's "blog worthy".

Enjoy his smile - we sure did!

Miss you much - love you more JimBob (that's another story....)